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There is a particular kind of discomfort that arises when we care deeply about something—an idea, a project, a role, a contribution—and it doesn’t land the way we hoped. It’s not just disappointment. It’s something sharper. More personal. It touches our identity.

When we are heavily invested, our sense of self can quietly fuse with the outcome. What we’ve done, how we’ve shown up, the effort we’ve given—it all becomes part of an internal narrative: this is who I am, and this is what I bring. So when that contribution isn’t recognised, or is challenged, or even overlooked, it doesn’t just feel like feedback. It can feel like a diminishment.

This is where humility becomes difficult.

Humility is the capacity to separate who we are from what just happened

Humility is often misunderstood as modesty or self-effacement. But in moments like these, humility is something far more demanding. It is the capacity to separate who we are from what just happened. To loosen our grip on the story that says, I should be seen this way. To remain open—even when part of us feels bruised, unseen, or invalidated.

I have felt this myself.

There are moments where I’ve given time, energy, and thought to something that matters—and when it hasn’t been acknowledged or received as I expected, I can feel my ego take a hit. There’s a quiet protest inside: But I did so much. Or That’s not fair or right. Or even, They don’t understand the value I’ve added.

Underneath that is often an idealised version of myself—competent, generous, impactful—seeking confirmation. When that confirmation doesn’t come, the gap between who I believe I am and what is being reflected back can feel uncomfortable. Sometimes confronting.

In a recent committee meeting, I saw this dynamic play out in someone else. A committee member became so activated that he couldn’t hear anyone else around him. The discussion narrowed into something almost impenetrable. His position wasn’t just a perspective—it had become something he needed to defend.

He did eventually calm down. But even then, something remained in the way. There was no apology. No acknowledgement of impact. It wasn’t that he lacked awareness entirely—it was more that something was still protecting him from stepping into that space.

This is the quiet work of the ego.

Ego serves a purpose to protect and stabilise us

Ego is not inherently bad. It serves a purpose. It protects, stabilises, and gives us a sense of continuity. But when we are under threat—especially social or psychological threat—it can become rigid. It resists letting go, because letting go can feel like losing face, losing standing, or even losing self.

Apologising, in those moments, is not just about saying “I’m sorry.” It can feel like conceding ground. Like admitting we were wrong in a way that challenges our identity. And if someone is already feeling vulnerable, exposed or unappreciated, that step can feel too costly, a step too far.

So instead, the ego holds the line.

What humility asks of us in these moments is subtle but profound. It asks us to tolerate the discomfort of not being seen as we want to be seen. To recognise that our internal experience—our effort, our intention—does not always translate into external validation. And to stay open anyway.

It also asks us to become curious about what is being protected.

Beneath defensiveness is often a fear of irrelevance, or a sense of not being valued

Often, beneath the defensiveness or the inability to apologise, there is something more vulnerable: a fear of irrelevance, a sense of not being valued, or a deeper uncertainty about one’s place in the group. When we can see that—both in ourselves and in others—it can shift the way we respond.

Humility, then, is not about diminishing ourselves or others. It is about creating space.

Space to reflect rather than react.

Space to listen without needing to win.

Space to acknowledge impact, even when intention was good.

Space to step back from the idealised self and meet what is actually happening.

It doesn’t mean we don’t care. In fact, it often means we care deeply—but are willing to hold that care more lightly, committed to an outcome although not attached to it looking any particular way.

Because in the end, humility is not about being less.

It is about being less entangled.